I am a perfectionist. Especially when it comes to other people. God today once again showed me just how imperfect I am. I cannot do everything perfect all the time. It’s not always going to be easy and it’s not always going to be good. I don’t like to swing and miss and I don’t like to mess up! I like to do it right and I like to have it done right the first time. Right and good.
So as I started Bible study today I didn’t know how it work out. Last year when we talked about lying it was the best Bible study of the summer. They listened so well and they were so intrigued with what I had to say. But last year when we had a thunderstorm it was our worst one! Today, the grey skies were rolling in and I knew it was going to be rough. I don’t know if anyone heard what I said or if anyone got anything out of it. I pray they learned something and I pray that the new girls are not scared away by the chaos today.
Doesn’t satan just love picking apart your brain and making you think the absolute worst! I am so completely blessed that girls continue coming to Girl Talk! It is bigger than I ever imagined and it’s one of the biggest blessings in my life! I now couldn’t imagine my life without it! It is the one thing I want to do right! I never want to mess it up or lose it! My biggest fear is losing it! I used to have nightmares that it was taken away from me and I would wake up in a cold sweat. I pray my girls heard what God had to say today. I pray they do not lie and they are not tempted to lie. I pray that when the thoughts present themselves on whether or not to lie, I pray God brings up the things we talked about today. Through the chaos, the rain, and over talkative girls I pray His words make it through to the hearts that needed them most!
You don’t have to do it perfect every time. You cannot be the perfect mom every day. You cannot be the perfect dad every day. You cannot be the perfect boss or the perfect employee. The perfect student or the perfect teacher. Wherever your life finds you today, you cannot always be the best. But don’t let satan critic yourself sick. I could stay up all night worried if my girls heard me or not but it’s God’s job to take the seeds from here. My effort was given, He blesses our efforts. He blesses your effort. He sees what you’re doing. You might feel like nothing will ever happen, those people will never listen to you, your children will never care, your friends will never change– but God, He has a plan. You are called to follow Him, do His will, and seek Him in all you do. Plant seeds, water those you are called to water, and He will do the growing. We do the planting and/or the watering, but God does the growing.
You will not be perfect in everything you do. But you have a perfect God holding you. [I didn’t mean for that to rhyme but I couldn’t delete it] 🙂 Don’t let satan tear you down telling you you’re not good enough, nobody listened to you, you make no difference. You are good enough and you are making a difference!!
Be encouraged tonight. Don’t let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game! And don’t let the perfectionism keep you from knowing and feeling and believing your worth! You are His!
And as I write this post, one of my sweet girls texted me to tell me how she feels about me! God is here! God is listening! And tonight, He is telling you that you are worth more than gold!