The night of August 30, 2008, God called me to ministry. I was so terribly broken- God filled me and immediately called me.
I was going into the 9th grade and the last year had consisted of “boyfriend,” best friend and several people I looked up to walking out together in the matter of a couple weeks and changing schools twice.. my world was falling apart. I was completely broken hearted, still dealing with losing my dad, the very few people I actually trusted left. I was alone. For the last three years, I had been running in circles scratching for anything, anyone, any circumstance that wasn’t fatherless, loveless and joyless- like me.
It was Commission Weekend, our back to school Labor Day church retreat, and Ken and Kristin Tew were our speakers. That summer we went to New Orleans on choir tour and I fell in love with them. I was so excited to have them back! But Saturday night, I realized I was at rock bottom. (Read about rock bottom here.) Running hamster wheels trying to be everything but what you are is exhausting and at thirteen years old, I had to realize that the tough way. He wasted no time, He filled me up and called me out.
When God called me to ministry, I never would have been able to tell you that my life would look the way it does today and I still have a long way to go to be where I’m supposed to be with God. I’ve learned that living life in ministry is taking one day at a time with an eternal focus. I started this website as a journal for my ministry journey. “My journey of Infinitely More” (Ephesians 3:20) My life is infinitely more than I could have ever thought, asked or imagined. August 30, 2008, next to accepting Christ, was the best day of my life because, while I still suffer from many fears resulting from the much heartbreak, for the first time in my life I knew Who I belonged to and where I fit in- with Jesus- and that’s all I ever need. Thank you Ken and Kristin Tew for being the direct vessels for who God used in my calling and thank you to every single person who has ever loved me, walked away from me, broken my heart, supported me and every other path crossing action. Without you, I would not be where I am today. “CONSIDER IT PURE JOY, MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS, WHENEVER YOU FACE TRIALS OF MANY KINDS..” JAMES 1:2-4
Thank you to my most beloved Kingdom building God family who is walking beside me today making me the best I can be while loving all of me fiercely.